Now what

Salaam, hi guys

So akak and umi already left for Malaysia 3 days ago. Here me and Ma floating wondering on what next. As we already planned months ago, this time marking the 1st April is the day we sumbitting ourself as an intern in our previous teaching hospital. But I am very confirmed that the office is not opened today so I rather be a sloth today.

I tried to read some few things about HOship but I couldnt even finished 2 pages.

Oh btw, Qayah is staying with us now. She finished ALS today and passed! Omg that small girl is really a wonder woman. She deserved it! Got to pack her things in 2 days and attended full day course for 3 days straight is too much for me. She didnt sleep and still manage to read this morning preparing for the exam. Huhu. She will go far, isa

Hopefully I will go hit the road early. And get some stuff done. Come on, girl. Time is priceless. Time is life!

The waiting game

Hi, assalamualaikum!

     So, hamdulillah today we received the result. We both passed, me got JJ and Ma got J. I think it is still a good result. Despite that we want more, we know this works the best for us. After all, this only symbolizes what you did in the last 4 years. What is more significant is what you prepare now for the next crucuial 4 years. I believe we all know what is trending now in Malaysia. The overnumbered of medical grads and of course the latest, the highest civil servants who leave the job belong to house officer.

     I am always at nervous state as I am really aware that in fact me and Ma is the first kid who went to medical school. We have nobody to ask about medical school life, whats to do during school break and what profession we are going to take. Basically it all comes from the books, internet, friends and of course figures that pay a visit to Cairo. We managed to get first with Dr Har when we was in 3rd yr. So thats the first time I mingled with person, which is not my professors in college. Someone who comes from my homeland, speaks my language and soon to be my collegue. But I came to recall that Dr Har and her friend spoke something about our attitude and things to do to polish us during school days. Of course it helps.

    And one more thing that really gives a good glimpse about my future is internet. I just have to type things I want to know and tadaa there you go. I got to know that if I'm interested to further in Surgery, I can take MRCS that held by Royal College in UK. I followed Muharikah, etc.

    So today, after few months of searching, analyzing, discussing and etc, I handed my imtyaz application letter to Syaimaa, the assistant in Malaysian Student Affairs. I made a different letter for me and Ma. Lets see how it is going to be. As for MRCS, I can see that I will not take them in Cairo. I really dont know what to do now. You know the waiting game. Wait for everything. I need my coordinator to first check the letter and send me the approval. Then I can work on my working visa in Cairo. Hopefully, I will get the 1 yr period. It is a real pain to have a few months visa when you are dealing with unique creatures on the Earth. I dont want to talk about this. But shit just got real. HAHA. What do you think I'm thinking right now? Due to some new recent regulations made for the visa application, I couldnt get my 2016's. I worked on them since September. But when the letter of approval came, showing me that I am a student the wakil visa couldnt work on that. Why? Because the date of application is already expired. Okay, fine. My bad I always too kind to leave the class to make my tasdiq. Why? Because every Tuesday there is Anatomy class. And Ammu Alaq only come on Tuesday. So so messed up! I couldnt leave the class, sorry not sorry. The class is important. So that explains why I didnt have my 2016's and was fined a good LE100 , *thumbs down

     So another waiting game is can I go to Alex?

Tomorrow with You

Salaam wbt,

    Hi all. How are you doing, guys? I hope you all are enjoying what you are doing. As for me and Ma, we are enjoying our long holiday to the fullest. It's been almost 3 weeks since we last sat for the final exam. We have a good news! We just got our visa to stay for another few months in Cairo. Oh God knows how hard is it to get one because this year they have changed the format and procedure. It was a real pain to go back and forth, met people to get the signatures. Why not when you are dealing with one of most difficult people on the earth!

    We started to work on the visa application since September@October because we wanted to free from headache during the study leave. But things didnt work accordingly. Few problems arised. The admin women both in Student's Affairs and Wakil Visa knew our faces already. Finally we both managed to bring the tasdiq, a conteng2 already hoping that our application will be approved. I prayed this going to pay off as we already plan to travel around as umi and akak are coming in few weeks. Hamdulillah. Now I am more at ease. Settle satu mende. Haha

    The problem now is that the same stupid problem comes to akak's visa. The pegawai was mistakenly wrote her name. It was clearly wrongly pronounced. Had the pain troubled abang yesterday, I bet umi found it will be hard to abang to teman akak again. I hope Allah will open the door and lead the way for akak and umi. It is never easy when it comes to Mesir. urghh

    I was informed that tomorrow or after tomorrow, our result will be announced. I have a good feeling that we all will pass this. I really want to get better result from 5th yr's. I knew I didnt do too well, but I'm hoping to get mumtaz. But I know it is hard. So, I think Jayyid Jiddan is still good. I just don't want to get Jayyid anymore. I enjoy Surgery and ObGyn very much and I hope to bring home good memories. Azhar University is not the same with other universities, I told you. They held a difficult exam every year. And difficult professors too. They are kind, of course. Lovely much. But when it comes to the exam, they somehow looks like stepmother who tortures us, the Cinderellas. Haha

     As for time being, I'm preparing for MRCS Part A. I plan to sit for this exam in this Sept, inshaaAllah. I hope to pass in one go. And then spend a good final weeks in Egypt with abi and umi and then head home to sit for my iv with SPA. Or maybe I will just go home to sit for iv, then come again to Cairo. If the iv takes place in Ocober (please, dear God) I will go home for a week then come again to Cairo with abi and umi and perhaps the other siblings. While I'm finishing my final internship, they can enjoy Egypt. And when the iv's result come out, I will head home. Got 1-2 weeks to prepare for work.

    Say hi to Cairo, here I come travelling!

our final study break

Salaam,

     Hi guys, hope you all doing great. Me and Ma just finished shopping our groceries. We bought a lot, so that explained the pile of shopping bags in the hall. I thought I should start my diet now. I mean maybe not really a regime of diet but rather to eat right and in moderate. Still I bought some snacks that I love most just to help me during craving time.

     We finished MCQ last Saturday. The questions surprisingly a bit hard, in a way that who didnt actually read good and understand the points might think the exam maker is just plain crazy surgeon who wanted to fail us. Im sorry but we both didnt make the full mark, guys. It was 20 questions exam in half an hour. I think I spoilt the half of them. Huhu

    I tried to study continously from yesterday and today. I did read some points and answered past year questions in order to polish my preparation for the exam next Monday. I hope we both can ace Surgery. It is our fav subject, and the teachers too are our fav prof of all times. I think thats all for now. Will write more later, iA. Meanwhile, whoever reads this post please make du'a for us both to stay calm, and rajin to revise. Aameen 

2 weeks before the grand finale

Well, salaam all

2 bulan sudah tidak menulis. Juggling with school stuff and all. Esok umi akan berangkat ke Tanah Suci untuk menunaikan umrah. Semoga umi mendapat umrah yang mabrur, selamat pergi dan pulang. Eru dan Ma akan menduduki kertas pertama Surgery pada 12hb Dec. Sabtu depan bukan final lagi. Tu termasuk daripada penilaian tahunan 20%. Ada 40 soalan objektif, markahnya 40 dijawab dalam masa 90 minit. Semoga Ma dan Eru sukses sebelum, semasa dan selepas menjawab.

Eru dan Ma sudah survey2 tiket untuk korang sekalian datang. Tapi tak boleh cakap panjang sebab lambat lagi. Bulan 3 baru konvo. At least beli lepas habis exam. Mungkin bulan 2 dah boleh start beli dan decide perkara2 lain.

Tentang lepas exam.
Ada banyak benda dah dirancang. Ada yang mesti buat segera, sebab tak ada dah waktu lain seperti menghadiri pesta buku antarabangsa Kaherah seusuai habis exam. I will need around RM1k. Nak beli buku2 medic, dan tentunya buku2 lain. Mungkin akan beli yang betul2 berkenan saja. Sebab kalo buku yang tak best tak tahu nak jual kat siapa. Dan mungkin akan beli buku2 latest release je. Lepas tu nak lawat Abu Umar. Nak pergi Luxor Aswan. Nak lawat Prof Gad. Kemudian nak attend conferences sebanyak mungkin. Last sekali nak buat kat Mesir sebelum korang datang is to attend Dina's convo. Kat Zagzig for first and last time. Maybe akan turun Mansoura though I dont know apa yang menarik kat sana.

Ada banyak sangat topik belum baca. Dan yang habis 100% pun baru beberapa topik. ObGyne jangan cakap. Tak study lagsung lagi because Surgery is a lot. Dan ada yang dah baca belum hafal. Baru 1st reading. My style bila datang exam kena ada beberapa siri reading. 1st ni baru nak kenal hati budi. Yang kedua baca dan faham. Yang ketiga belek2 soalan. Yang keempat hafal. Yang kelima tulis. Yang keenam, ulang. Huhu..

Rasa nak pergi DMAK la malam ni. Nak makan mee kungfu sambil study kat sana. But my winter coat is still in the laundry. Sejuk ketow la aku nanti kat kafe. Hmm. Nak pergi ke tak ea?

Not all who wander are lost

Salaam, there =)

It is almost 8pm here now. I slept like a log in the evening. I had a long day today. First as there was no lecture (again?!) I went to outpatient clinic. It was hectic there. Too much Masriyyat students and Imtyaz doctors. I barely had a chance to observe and do examination. I think I only took blood pressure from 2 mothers, 1 abdominal examination, few ultrasounds and PV examination. Still it was better than sitting in the lecture hall with girls talking non-stop. I love OPC lots better than reading in the hall like that. 10 cases arent too bad, right? I will come again tomorrow, iA. But first I think I am lacking in theory so much. I didnt even know what is the difference between menorrhagia, metrorhagia and menometrorhagia. Then my time in OPC, 2-3hours could be meaningless! I don't know where things I observe in OPC are going to lead me. So first thing first, I need a base. A map which can direct me where to go. Let alone la bahasa dorang guna. I really wanna cry when they talked well, like I am masriyyat :D

At 11, I took the elevator to the New Building where I do my clinical round with the professor. Well actually, it is not as clinical as much you are thinking about. We did clerk her. But I think it is not sufficient enough. We discussed the history of the patient, her progress, her management plan and all. Sometimes we do ultrasound for her. But I think this is not enough. I hope to discuss patient in a way those student who is in turn must attend outpatient clinic. She must be present in outpatient clinic and will pick up mothers who are going to be admitted. Soon, she is the one who must follow up her investigations and the result. She must present that result in front of the class. And at last she will help in assisting the resident or medical officer in charge to discharge patient or to make referral. She will help in giving antenatal care from A to Z. I know this is hard. But the hard is always the right thing you have to do in the right way. I don't know if I can voice this out. People will always first check on my background before they want to analyse what I'm saying about. Either I am qualified or not, etc. And this is going to involve so much people and papers. I don;t think the administration wants to add more on their plate. The timetable for lecturers is already a pain. I must find my way out. I know this is sad. But I hope someone told me months ago. What to do, how and all. That way I think things are going to be more benefit, enlightening me the subjects and all. Both surgery and obgyne.

Okay, I need to submit my research by tonight. Dr Ghada gave me her FB (lol). She said she will check it first, then if I can come to ER after tomorrow she will do the correction with me, and then I can go straight away to Prof Asmaa'. I dont know. I think FB is very personal, except for those you intend to connect with la. I think she is the 1st female lecturer who gave me her FB. Because I remember texting something about MRCS from a surgery resident in which she ignored me twice! So what's the point to give me her phone number if she wasn't going to connect with me. She can just ignore me that day, I don't mind at all. Now I just have to do my best in final exam Surgery than I will ask Prof Badawy to guide me next year to prepare for MRCS. I don't want to depend on him. I just want a guide from him. That's all. All people I depend all these while one by one slip me off from their hands. Guess what? I have a revenge too.Mihahahaha

Few pages to finish my research ;D

Salaam :)

Hi, how are you doing? For me, it's fine. Holiday finishes and yeah go back to school. Today is the first day. And we have not much days left for this year curriculum. Just few weeks to go, then we will start to have the study break, or study leave whatever you call it to prepare for the final professional exam.

Most of my friends took this opportunity to spend their time with loved ones. Ada yang balik kampung. Ada yang travel outside Egypt. Ada yang ambil bas dan travel beberapa jam ke luar Cairo. Manakala eru dan ma hanya berada di dalam bilik dan saling berziarah antara satu sama lain. Kah3. Selain daripada bajet yang terhad, kami juga tiada plan untuk travel ke mana-mana. Well, kami kan nak buat sanah imtyaz kat sini. InshaaAllah saya ada setahun lebih lagi kat sini. And when my financial is stable, with the right timing no assigment to worry at and all, masa tu la saya akan ke sana sini. Okay ini sedih. Kerana itulah kata-kata yang selalu saya katakan pada diri sendiri sejak tahun 1. Tak perlu balik kampung, nak travel sana sini tunggu la. Ada masa lagi. Sedar tak sedar saya dah habis 6 tahun kat sini dan hanya melawat beberapa tempat di Mesir. Lol. Sedih ke ya? Biasa je. I know my limit =)

InshaaAllah lusa saya akan serahkan mini research saya kepada Dr feveret saya iaitu Dr Ghadaa. Saya sukakan beliau. Well sebenarnya saya suka ramai dr. Tapi Dr Ghadaa amat istimewa kerana pertamanya beliau orang yang pertama membantu saya clerking pada hari pertama saya di wad O&G ni. Beliau sporting. Passionate about her career. Dan beliau masakkan lasagna bakar yang sedap sewaktu saya berbuka bersama-sama dr lain di wad. Ia kenangan yang indah. Tidak terbayar.

Tapi saya ada banyak nak tulis lagi. Tapi saya perlu pergi solat dan sambung penulisan saya. Sukar juga tajuk saya kerana ianya tajuk yang mencakupi beberapa tajuk lain. Jadi saya perlu study semua dan buat rumusan serta menulis satu kajian yang berkualiti. Saya berharap contentnya bagus, updated serta susunannya kemas dan diterima oleh semua supervisors saya. InshaaAllah Zida yang akan edit balik semua ni. Saya percaya kepada kekemasan kerja beliau. Doakan kami viva next month iA ;) till then, paipai

Think this is not my last eid adha in Egypt

Salaam, Eid Mubarak guys !

     Well it's Eroo again here. How are you doing guys? Is it great to spend some time together in Segamat? I heard most of you are there now. Only Pak Ngah in Rawang and Pak Itam Pak Usu couldnt make it, right? I hope you guys enjoy each other company. I hope when I am in your age, 50-60 I am still be able to travel more than 4hrs journey just to spend the holiday with my loved ones.

     I woke up today a bit earlier than usual, got my breakfast and bath and we hit the road 15 min before 6. It's already takbir that time. I walked fast because I am afraid we will not have seat to perform solat sunat. Sampai2 depan gate kawasan musolla sayyidat dah berkunci pagarnya. Huaa. Imam pun ketuk2 mic, dah nak solat. I walked to a lorry parked in front of the gate and urged Ma to bentang her sejadah. We managed to get a seat and right on the imam started the prayer. I don't know about others' feeling. But the adrenaline rush when I walked fast together with the other Muslims I feel like performing Hajj. It was a good feeling. I felt like responding to Allah's calling. I saw beautiful big balloons were hanging in many corners, ready to be spreaded to children when solat is finished I think.

     After finished solat, me and Ma went inside when the gate is opened. I chose to sit on the grass with sejadah being hampar. But we were not long there because I smell something so smelly like kitty's poo. Ergghh. I went to another spot and tried to listen to the khutbah eid. They were in Arabic, I didnt understand all of them. Haha.

     Malas lak nak sambung coz takde mood. Long short story I walked home from the masjid. Stopped in front of Zahraa and bought some juices and biscuits and cakes for the any MO's. I didnt expect anything. There were Dr something I met her during my logbook days. And I met the beauty and messy dr Kareema. Haha. But dr 1 refused to take mine. She said something like bribe. Oh please! What should I bribe you and not the prof? And if I really want to bribe shouldnt I bring something more valuable and meet you alone not in front of other 2 medical personnel. Funny and irritating Egyptians! It was better if today Dr Zaynab is working. At least she knew I always bring foods to ward level 4. I was there always with patteseries, and not empty-handed. I even finished my logbook. And if I ever wanted to do any procedures I can ask from team Dr Ghadaa instead of you. They knew me well. Omg! What an irritating day for me. Luckily the other nurse took my buah tangan. The other house officer also refused to take it when Dr 1 spoke like that.

     I went home and here I am, finished the 3rd juices. And waiting to finish downloading my Running Man. I should start my assignment, right? I will start them today. InshaaAllah

I hope I know this soon

Salaam dear readers, whoever you are.

     I wish to set this blog private but I can't find the way. I remember invite umi and akak to write here few years ago. They did write. So siapa sebenarnya yang ada authority untuk blog ni? Umi? Eru rasa umi dah lupa password umi guna untuk blog ni. I don't think umi still have the minat to write things. Umi is near to 60 next year. It is different when she first wrote she was not even 55.

     So hari ni eru nak cerita apa yang berlaku. It is new things always when it comes to Zahraa. Sekarang dah bulan 9. Hanya sebulan saja lagi tinggal untuk sesi lecture. Kemudian on November we will start preparing for final professional exam which inshaaAllah will start at the end of Nov with MCQs. So hari ni takde lecture. Prof Mona dah 2 minggu on study leave. She went to Germany to finish her studies. I think on it, what a courage. Or she must be rich. Or she is funded. Sebab seminggu kemudian, Prof Abo Fotouh kata masa ganti lecture Prof Mona, beliau pergi Jerman sebab teman atau jumpa suami beliau kat sana. And she went there together with her daughter which accompanied her on her last lecture with her. I said beruntungnya parents from this kind of background. Muda2 dah ada pengalaman berjalan overseas. But then I think of myself. My parents still funding me though I know we are not that rich to spend money on 2 children. Thanks umi abi sebab beri peluang. I really love and enjoy my time being in Egypt. Macamana la eru nak balas jasa umi abi ea, huk huk

     Hari ni tak ada lecture. Eru bangun mandi brekpes baca Quran kemudian download Running Man. Kah3. Kemudian off ke hospital. Eru pergi klinik pesakit luar sebab rasa malas nak attend lecture sejam. Sebenarnya nak spend masa 2 jam lecture Prof Mona kat OPC (outpatient clinic) sebab lepas dah bersiap semua 6 something Ma kata tak ada lecturer akan ganti Prof Mona. So I decided before its getting more sunny I better hit the road. So I spend the time in OPC. Hari ni masuk2 je ada sorang doktor je. Klinik tak bukak lagi. Nurse baru sampai. Dr ni pun baru sampai. So I grabbed my cases book and read. It was about endometrial carcinoma. Patient was around 50, not married, obese and not controlled DM. Ada bleeding so buat U/S semua detect ada endometrial carcinoma. Dr masih berborak dengan nurse bahagian sakit perempuan. I looked at my watch. Dah 9 something. I start to think, cemana nak maju kalo camni. Patient dah berderet agaknya kat luar. Patut pukul 9 semua doktor dah ada dan patient dah boleh start masuk untuk dapatkan rawatan. Huhu

     Dr habis berborak I asked her permission if I can involve today in taking ptients blood pressure. She looked surprise. Mungkin sebab 1st time ada student nak involve ataupun dr rasa mende tu kacang sangat. Then came dr Asmaa. Both looked astonished as my request was so weird. She said, nak buat BP je ke? It is so simple. Of course you can. So gembira la. Sebab kebenaran dah dapat. It means she welcomes me and thats enough. Memang dapat banyak kali jugak assist ambil BP. Ada yang ch HTN, ada yang PET, ada yang BP rendah dan ada yang normal je. It was a good day of course and bad day for some doctors. Dorang ada bertelingkah, and you know la wanita mesir. pergh boleh tahan sorang2. Garang nak mampus. But I dont think they are angry until they calling names. Semoga Allah permudahkanlah urusan korang ye dr2 sekalian. I know it is a heavy task. Aku yang berdiri observe U/S, amik hx 2 student Malaysia from Islamic studies, ambil BP pt dalam sedozen, acah2 interpret CTG pun masuk round pukul 12 dah collapsed. Dengar tak dengar je small lecture dr  Haala tadi on PIH. walaupun hari ni sebenarnya turn aku untuk OT dan ada sorang pt untuk NVD tapi aku decided nak balik. Sampai rumah isi perut sikit, tengok RM dah habis download ke belum terus tidur selama 2 jam sebelum dikejutkan ngan suara Wani. Wani ngan Leha baru balik OT dan tak ada pun kes sama ada CS ataupun NVD ataupun DC. So terima kasih Allah bagi aku balik terus hari ni. Sangat penat, huhu

     Okay la. Nak makan nasi telur ngan kicap. Lepas tu ROS, dan beberapa benda nak tengok. Kemudian nak study. End round punya assignment dah dapat tajuk. I am in team of Prof Asmaa Mahmoud. Lecture dia best gila. Pumpang2 keluar isi daripada mulut dr ni. And her voice is clear and her lecture is very good la. I hope to have a fruitful discussion with here. Okay, pen off. Babai stalkers

Post whats in my mind

Salaam, umi and others.

I asked umi few days ago to write again in this blog. Because I think writing is a kind of evergreen stuff. When I re-read umi's post I feel like to live again in the past. Is it that I become so pessimist that I don't dare to plan more about my future. For your information, (FYI) I chose surgery due to many reasons.

First, this is my final year in college as undergraduate student. I feel so good when I can bring home some good news. Back in 2010, there were some unsettled things happened at home. I decided to get excellent result in my sophomore year. At least this can ease our financial burden on my tution fees. They told us if we get excellent result in final year examination I can apply for scholarship or any loan. For our family this was an urgent need as both abi and umi not only funded me and Ma studies overseas but also akak's college and both abang and ayi. Everybody needed to be funded. It must be so overwhelming for both abi and umi. But then after achieved such an excellent result, still I was denied from any scholarship and loan things. And alas when I finished 3rd year, JPA contacted me thru email that my application was accepted. I remember obtained JJ in my 2nd year when I was in Mecca doing omraa during my summer break. We called friends who stayed in Cairo and I was mistakenly notified that I achieved Mumtaz too while the real result was JJ. Umi still satisfied. And we prayed to get accepted by JPA. I suddenly realized that this world and its contents were never enough for man. And they can never fulfill man's need. So cut story short after JJ then J then JJ again then J in my 5th year I felt so bad because I couldnt bring home any Mumtaz anymore. I know the air in our home is still sore and sour until this time for almost 6 years, thus I want to finally bring Mumtaz again. To close my episode of trial with some smile just for both abi and umi. For them, for them...

And secondly I think all professors in Surgery are just awesome. Maybe it just because this is my 1st time being taught fully by male professors which makes the atmosphere a bit different. They tend to make short class. And yes, who didnt like this? > < 

GO eat some times with you loved ones

Today me and other housemates will make a small party in Yaya's house. Yaya has 2 children. She married when we were in 2nd year. This raya haji she will send off her children to Malaysia. So to spend some good time and wave goodbye almost for years to Nanim and Tsaqif we agree to make this small party. Actually it is only a brunch. But it feels so good just to gather with your close friends.

Yaya is cousin to Aisyah Nordin. My classmate in MTS, she finished her dental degree since a year now. When I first met Yaya in my faculty, she dressed so raggedly. I remember she wore a leather jacket, and mini skirt and jeans. For a kampung girl like me that went to tahfiz school this kind of scenery was a tremendously new. I called Yaya back that time as Sue. Her nama was Suraya. But gradually she is called as Yaya so I changed it to sync with my collegues. I think only family members call her Sue.

InshaaAllah today we will be joined as well by kak dayah and jaafar sadik st clan, kak yani and his toddler, kak farah and her toddler and gummy and some friends live near to Mahkamah. There is a mahkamah in 7th district where most of the building belonged to the property of Kerajaan Malaysia. So you can always see many Malaysians walking around that mahkamah. The price of rent house there also spiking from year to year. Dulu boleh cari rumah sekitar LE1500 for 2 rooms, but now even if you pay for LE1800 you might end up with single bedroom apartment. But 7th district is developing now. They have more and more shop and all. Only those who are professional I heard live there. Doctors, engineers, bla3 are all around you.

It is so good to read umi's posts. I can now realize that how time flies so fast. Next year, inshaaAllah less than a year to go, in fact in 8 months to go I will return to Malaysia with my  medical degree. So funny to go through over pictures and stories I have been sharing with others that make me almost 7 years older when I first left Malaysia.

Studying in here since September 2010 and will return inshaaAllah on April or May 2017. I grow up and gain more maturity when I depart and leave my nest. I hope when I am among my family member later I will be someone who gives more benefit from what I was in 2010.

Okay got to pen off now. I need to put the noodles I boil into the tupperware. We will bring mee kari and sambal telur from Abbasia. Gummy said she is going to prepare nasi goreng cina with kak farah. As for kak dayah she has been busy cooking mee bandung muar. And there will be kek red velvet and all too. Kak yani said she will bring pulut. OMG I CANT WAIT!

Carrying heavy load

Salaam, hi all.

So it has been 4 years since the last post. How time flies, right? And many things happen all the way until now. Me and Ma already in the final year, just couple months more to finish our medical school. While akak is now working near to Paka town. Ayi just start college and abang inshaAllah to apply a driving license for driving heavy loads.

Today class starts at 10. I planned initially to go to outpatient clinic. Maybe I can observe more cases but I am super lazy. I've been stress about going to hospital nowadays. It becomes more tiring to walk everyday. The distance is 1km like that from my apartment. But these few months I gain about 5kg and just to walk is a pain for me.

I am taking losing weight seriously now. My current weight now is 126kg. Huhu

Hello Bloggers!

bismillah :)


it has been almost a year since we post anything to this blog.So now,I am officially write something or actually copy pasta what I read just now.It was a very good article that we as Muslim often neglect it.Just because we think it is not compulsary to us,but actually maybe it may remain as sunnah,but it is the penanda aras how serious we are in this matter.So check them out :)

Morning from Egypt!


                                               7 sunnah Nabi s.a.w
"CERDASNYA orang yang beriman adalah, dia yang mampu mengolah hidupnya yang sesaat, yang sekejap untuk hidup yang panjang. Hidup bukan untuk hidup, tetapi hidup untuk Yang Maha Hidup. Hidup bukan untuk mati, tapi mati itulah untuk hidup.

Kita jangan takut mati, jangan mencari mati, jangan lupakan mati, tapi rindukan mati. Kerana, mati adalah pintu berjumpa dengan Allah s.w.t.. Mati bukanlah cerita dalam akhir hidup, tapi mati adalah awal cerita sebenarnya, maka sambutlah kematian dengan penuh ketakwaan.

Hendaknya kita selalu menjaga tujuh sunnah Nabi s.a.w setiap hari. Ketujuh sunnah Nabi s.a.w. itu adalah:


Pertama : Tahajjud, kerana kemuliaan seorang mukmin terletak pada tahajjudnya.

Kedua : Membaca al-Qur'an sebelum terbit matahari. Alangkah baiknya sebelum mata melihat dunia, sebaiknya mata membaca al-Qur'an terlebih dahulu dengan penuh pemahaman.

Ketiga : Jangan tinggalkan masjid terutama di waktu subuh. Sebelum melangkah ke mana pun langkahkan kaki ke masjid, kerana masjid merupakan pusat keberkahan, bukan kerana panggilan muazzin tetapi panggilan Allah yang mencari orang beriman untuk memakmurkan masjid Allah.

Keempat : Jaga solat dhuha, kerana kunci rezeki terletak pada solat dhuha.

Kelima : Jaga sedekah setiap hari. Allah menyukai orang yang suka bersedekah, dan malaikat Allah selalu mendoakan kepada orang yang bersedekah setiap hari.

Keenam : Jaga wuduk terus-menerus kerana Allah menyayangi hamba-Nya yang berwuduk. Kata Khalifah Ali bin Abu Thalib, "Orang yang selalu berwuduk senantiasa ia akan merasa selalu solat walau ia sedang tidak solat, dan dijaga oleh malaikat dengan dua do'a, diampuni dosa dan sayangi dia ya Allah."

Ketujuh : Amalkan istighfar setiap saat. Dengan istighfar masalah yang terjadi kerana dosa kita akan dijauhkan oleh Allah.

Zikir adalah bukti kita kepada Allah. Bila kita bersyukur, maka kita kurang berzikir pula. Oleh kerana itu setiap waktu harus selalu ada penghayatan dalam melaksanakan ibadah ritual dan ibadah ajaran Islam lainnya. Zikir juga merupakan makanan rohani yang paling diperlukan, dan dengan zikir berbagai kejahatan dapat ditinggalkan sehingga jauhlah umat manusia daripada sifat-sifat yang berpangkal pada materialisme dan hedonisme.

catatan final exam 3,kot

Salam alaykum,salam sejahtera kepada semua penduduk bumi di mana saja anda berada.Di msia,di meser,di kilang lynas.thee thee thee.

Okay,this round i would like to write something something.Like yesterday,kak milah and some of her friends came to our house on bakan perak matter.I heard that Bdan kebajikan perak gave each perakian 5oo msia.wow...so cool,if i get one i just want to spend them on delievered foods everyday.From day to day,doing something not linking to xm's day seems to be so tiring.And i dont believe that i can walk about an hour per day then rushing to make dinner everyday.Nowadays,to eat is so menyusahkan.I like to cicoh roti with susu only or maybe nasi goreng is special.Buah2 also is invited into my meal except that sometimes i skipped them bcoz buah is so far to go to buy and i dont like walking in this hot weather.phew......

okay,my friends have been talking about going back to msia.after all,me myself got extravaganza ideas.maybe i will finish my summer with travelling to tanta,mansoura,alex and zagazig.anything except stay in home.i dont want to turn up like my winterbreak.yeah,there's sauroh but i cant believe that i've to be curfewed.in a packed house,playing computer game or just sleep.x beh lasom i tell u.and yeah,tv too.tv is good .hahaha,but not now anymore,the house i used to live during sauroh has been out of astro-like services.poor them.hahaahha

okay,got to go.pray that i can finish my cardiovascular today.babababababai

The ancient people of sabak bernam

   Salaam children of heaven ,

   Atuk's mater had four siblings all female ...okasaan called them opah usu , opah uteh , opah kili and of course opah sabak ...opah usu was the youngest and opah sabak was the eldest..by now you know that opah sabak was atuk's mater ...all of them had passed away when okasaan was in secondary school ...except opah sabak...opah sabak was still alive when okasaan married pater ...opah uteh was mak lang's yati grandma ..opah usu was tok alang milah's mater ...you have not met any of opah kili's decendents ....okasaan never met atuk uteh or atuk sabak ..both of them passed away before okasaan was born ...

   Opah uteh had only one child and he is tok unggal ,mak alang's yati pater ...we always visit tok unggal during eidul fitri ...

This is tok unggal's house..the man beside al hafiz ayi is pak uda ,tok unggal's son..

   Dear children of heaven , tok unggal's first wife was opah's younger sister ..the only sister you know ..if fact okasaan knew she was the only aunt who was still alive when okasaan was young ...atuk's sisters were all dead before okasaan was born ...

   Okasaan thinks you should know all these people ,before okasaan is also gone from this world ...okasaan also thinks that it is not suprising that atuk had seven sons and only three daughters but most of atuk's grandchildrens are girls ..out of seventeen only six grandchildrens are boys ...but then atuk's grandchilds are a handful compared to atuk unggal's ...hahahahaha....dunia akhir zaman ...

at pengkalan balak ,last year's family day..

Last night okasaan was listening to radio klasik antarabangsa...where else laa if not at klasik national ..there is one song but okasaan could not remember who was the singer...he sang...i can't give you anything but my love , but my love ....hahahahaha...as if we could buy a kilo of sugar with love ...or as if we can eat love in order to stay alive....remember children that we need more than love if we want to survive in this mad mad mad world ...and do you know ...there is a son of one chief minister in our country that has to give his ex-wife four hundred million rm ..one million as fasakh and three million as harta sepencarian ..........but then children , who needs love if we are hungry ...no amount of love can give you a plate of rice ....but dear children ...just remember we need Allah's love ....

  Okasaan will continue telling you about all atuk's aunties at some other times ...as usual read your quran ...especially at these crucial times ....solat on time ..try not to meet the gajah or the elephants ,you know...it is quite scary meeting them all the time ...you may feel their stampede in your heart ...and dress properly ...

Adios , see you ...

Of angau and true love

  Salaam children of heaven ,

  How are you dear children of nile river ..have you seen the piramids or the spink..is okasaan writing them correctly.. if you went shopping try looking for papyrus letter ...is there such a thing ..okasaan is teaching history of the old nile river ...of cleopatra ..of the medicine ..and of course about pharoahs ...do you remember qarun , hamun ..and okasaan is very sure you know and will always remember the prophets musa as and harun as ...okasaan's pater's name was harun ...hahahahaha....as if the grandchildrens of harun can forget it ...

  Dear children of the nile river , can you tell okasaan where are firaun ,qarun , hamoon now...all are dead ...so are cleopatra and all the emperors of the byzantine empire ...in hundred years time so are we ...okasaan ,pater , arramuni ,the two hafizs the future twin dukturahs ....remember the ayat ...semua yang hidup akan mati...all living things will meet death one day in their life ...dunia tempat manusia menanam dan akhirat tempat menuai...we sow what we plant...so dear children plant all the good things in this world...so that we can sow all the good things in the hereafter...do you think that studying medicine all the way in nasr city / egypt / nile river is wasting your time ..do you think travelling thousands of miles just to study medicine is small matter ..

  Allah is Great ..Allah Knows what is happening to you over there ...semua perkara akan dibalas..whether good or bad ...just make sure your intention or your niat is because of Allah ...not because you want to show to other people ...not the big salary nor the glamour nor others' opinion ..

this is where it first started 

   Dear children of heaven , whenever you feel the burden ,the heavy burden , read quran ..take your ablution first ,then do solat hajat and read the quran ...never despair ..Allah is always there..my doa is always with you..

   Read your quran ...solat on time and dress properly ...adios ..see you soon..

Tiada yang kekal abadi melainkan Allah

   Salaam children of heaven ,

   Dengan Nama Allah yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Menyayangi ,
Tiada tuhan yang berhak disembah melainkan Allah dan Nabi Muhammad itu adalah Pesuruh Allah.
Aku mengaku janji-janji Mu benar,pertemuan dengan Mu benar , syurga Mu benar ,neraka Mu benar ,
nabi-nabi pilihan Mu benar dan Nabi Muhammad saw adalah benar .

  Buat anak-anak di lembah nil ,

  Ya Tuhan kami ,hanya kepada Engkaulah kami bertawakkal
   dan hanya kepada Engkaulah kami bertaubat
  dan hanya kepada Engkaulah kami kembali

Wahai anak-anak di lembah nil ,

Wahai Tuhan kami, kurniakanlah kami rahmat daripada sisi Mu ,
dan berikanlah kemudahan-kemudahan serta pimpinan kepada kami
untuk keselamatan agama kami.

 Dear children of heaven , whenever in kesusahan ingatlah doa ini

  Sesungguhnya tiada Tuhan (yang dapat menolong)melainkan Engkau (ya Allah )
  Maha Suci Engkau (daripada melakukan aniaya, tolonglah daku)
  Sesungguhnya aku adalah daripada orang yang menganiaya diri sendiri .

  Wahai Tuhanku ,sesungguhnya aku sangat berhajat kepada sebarang rezeki pemberian yang Engkau berikan
  Dan jika Engkau tidak mengampunkan dosaku , dan memberi rahmat kepadaku,
  Nescaya jadilah aku daripada orang yang rugi .

  Adios , see you soon ...

catatan final exam 3

dedicated to everybody especially to umi,penulis tegar blog kami.stalker jika ada :p.dan ayi qayyum akak yg dirindui :p nok luga hijau.

Catatan final exam 2

Alhamdulillah,thanks Allah.Im almost reaching my target for today.Still,I cant and sure cant satisfy now.Well,this is only a starting.Eventhough many obstacles and godaan from setan,I thanked Allah and everybody's du'a for living until today.Somehow,sometimes I was stuck in the midldle of my books.I have been to Zahraa' Hospital(for blood test).I put myself.I imagined myself.So,this is my place 2 years from now.Hectic,dirty,noisy and bla3.Is this what Im working for? For such of this upcoming things? I have to bear everything,my comforty bed,little amount of meals to make sure that I wont fall asleep during my study.Being scolded almost everyday.Is this what I want? Is this what Im working for?

My friend said,if u fight for dunia,you will find tiredness.Nothing else.So,thats the point when I was broken in some time.When we dont know what we're doing,we do the job without heart.Here comes tajdid niat.Always tajdid niat.Renew our intention everytime as setan has made his hidup mati sumpah to drag us including me! to neraka jahiim.Allah...now I know.

Hahaha,sometimes I wonder why do I want to be a doctor? Like I mentioned to myself many times.Being a doctor is too far from me.It takes 5 years journey to take me there.And the fact,maybe I already die along the journey.So,being a doctor is not my destination.So what was it?! What the heck Im doing now?

And so I reflected back.Why do I live? What I'm living for.No.Dont answer me.It's a question for you too,readers.We have Allah.Turn to him when you are in my shoes.And dont leave jemaah.When crucial time like now,I mean final exam,I think they are the only one who want this bond that linked us together to be more tighten.Nobody wants to see anybody else fail.Maybe we want to be the best but to let others fall down,I believe nobody dare to do that.

And maybe my writing now is just like a syarahan.Actually,it's a testing2 to test my writing.Umi,komen skek :p.Ok,I pergi dulu.

abababababbaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii

Half the leg is on the plane

   Salaaam children of heaven ,

   Next tuesday okasaan is going to do some medical checkup at kemaman hospital ...tabung haji has sent the letter asking to do so ..maybe okasaan will do the checkup at tnb panel ...tuesday is a working day laaa...okasaan does not want everybody to know laa ...only our relatives that is immediate relatives ...only okasaan's siblings and their children ..anyway the hajj season is five months away ..anything can happen in that time ...by the way children , pater is in sgbesar today ...okasaan did not think that pater would singgah at opah's house ...but that is Allah's work ..

  Okasaan is doing some reading about hajj and umrah / omraa...if okasaan has the money , okasaan will perform the umrah twice a year ...do you know that umrah to umrah will wash away all the sins that we committed....that is way okasaan would like to do that ...but pater has a different opinion , you know ...even if okasaaan is not going ,okasaan likes to talk about it ...but pater always says do not talk about it if we are not going ...it is like showing of ..like we are bersih punya people ..hahahahahaha...

okasaan wants to go with pater ,you know , but that is not possible .

and okasaan wants to climb this mount or jabal rahmah with pater ...maybe next time ..maybe next year.

Okasaan advise to all of you is only this ...never go to makkah or madinah alone ...if possible go with your spouse ,husband or wife , if  you are not married , go with your parents or your siblings ...only do not go alone..but this time insyaallah okasaan is going with mak andak and two cousins and also atuk's cousin ...pray that okasaan always has good health ...we cannot buy good health but we can always find money ...

The pligrims stay at one of this champ in mina ..maybe okasaan will stay here also during the 'melontar jamrah'

We stay at mina for three days or some pligrims stay only for two days if they want to ...the last time okasaan went with pater ,we stayed for three days ..one memory that will always stays in okasaan's heart  is pater's bald head ...

Can the dukturahs see camels in nasr city ...hahahahaha..in egypt ..not in the city..try to see this animal this coming varsity breaks ....

Have to go now ...asr prayer laaa...adios..see you