Salaaam children of heaven ,

  For the last few days i am sure my bp has risen..i cannot sleep at night ...i keep looking at the handset ..even in the middle of night whether malaysian time or egypt time i keep looking at that thing...there were times when i called the children asking them where were they at that time..sometimes they were answering with sleepy voice (is there such a thing ) telling me it was only three oclock in the morning..sometimes it was two oclock in the morning...hahahaha...what to do...i was so worried...

  Now they are in jeddah ..sitting on the floor ..waiting for their visa to be done or it is waiting for the visa to be completed...i don't know which one...you know , i am thinking of taking crk tomorrow..i don't feel strong enough  to go to school ..physically yes but mentally..no..no..no.and .i am very sure this month's bill for that thing is terlebih bajet...overspend by how many hundreds ,i cannot tell...i cannot write anymore..so many things to tell but i don't know to write ...i think i will continue tomorrow if i feel like it...my mind is so serabut..

  Maybe i will see the children sooner than intended...adios..